Livin’ on a Prayer and growing doubts.

I think that ancient Bon Jovi song pretty much sums up my life right now. Guess what, it’s exam time again -_- one down, 3 to go, but that first one did not go well at all. Right now I’m studying my bottom off for the next one tomorrow, but all the while anxiety and doubts keep growing. What if I don’t make it? Well, if I don’t make it, then I will need to go through the same hassle again as after high school. Decide what I want to study, find universities, narrow the search, choose some, apply, hope to get accepted, hopefully get accepted, move, adjust, start over… pffff. I hate starting over. It’s like when you die in a game just before you finished a mission.

I want to continue what I am doing now because it is interesting! I also happened to turn 20 yesterday and I really want to grow, move on, not be stuck in this phase anymore… At the same time I have also grown a lot spiritually since I started on my path, and would love to help others to do the same and get in touch with the Divine as well… not exactly what to do with an engineering degree is it…

…I’m slightly frustrated right now as you can see. Guess I’ll go vent it¬†into some physical activity involving sharp projectiles, and then get back to studying.

kitty hugs to all~


Well well, look who’s back :3

I am make my glorious entrance back into the blogosphere ūüėÄ After one month of break due to… aaaaargh exams!!! I am free to do as I please again. :3

Let me share some of my hyperexcitement with you:

  • First off the exam period is over and there is a high chance that I passed all the exams, hoorah!
  • Secondly,¬†tomorrow is a big day¬†because¬†I’m getting a new bow!!!¬†It is going to be an awesome recurve bow by SFarchery. Going to that¬†archery shop¬†is also already an experience in itself, it is owned by Peter Elzinga, champion dutch archer. It will involve getting really really early on a train to gonthere but it is all totally worth it ūüėÄ
  • Thirdly, I have thought of doing short, free tarot readings, in order to practice my skills on a wider range of people! In a few days I will have the page set up, more on that soon.
  • Also, the sun is shining today. Sunshine is wonderful ^_^

Anyway, that’s all for now, tomorrow I will probably be shamelessly showing off my new bow so stay tuned ^_^

kitty hugs to all~

~ Joouna